After losing anyone, everyone always says it is the big events where you notice the missing presence of a loved one the most. Everyone also says that the first year is the hardest, as this is when you have to experience these big events for the first time. We recently had our first New Year…
Deck the Halls
For those who read my blog post “My glass if half-full” you know that a) I love Christmas and b) that I always try to look on the bright side of things. So when it came to 1st December, I had to have the tree up. Only it wasn’t quite as fa la la la…
Getting to know Liskeard
One thing you should know about me is that I have an addiction to rightmove. For some strange reason I just love looking at houses for sale and imagining what my stuff would look like in there. I don’t know why, I just enjoy it. Anyway, two days ago one of the houses that I…
My glass is half-full
Starting this blog has been cathartic for me, but annoyingly in the last week, bothersome. I started this blog because at the time of losing Beatrice I couldn’t find any blogs relating to baby loss that I could relate and aspire to. Well actually absolutely no-one wants to aspire to baby loss, but when I…
Planning your baby’s funeral
If you’re reading this post because you’re having to go through the unthinkable process of planning your baby’s funeral, let me start by saying how incredibly sorry I am. Planning Beatrice’s funeral was one of the most stressful things I’ve ever had to, because I wanted it to be heartfelt and special but at the…
Our dream home?
An introduction to Liskeard When we were looking for our first house to buy together we had a few criteria in our minds, like everyone does that were a) essential b) desirable c) no way on earth we could live with. Looking back my essential criteria were; More floor space, A garden – any size…
Giving birth
Part 2 – The birth Leaving the hospital and going home to wait for 48 hours was torture. Knowing that my baby had died and was still inside me, not knowing why it had all happened and the prospect of having to tell everyone made me feel scared, guilty and lonely. It was the longest…
Finding out
How does stillbirth happen? There are lots of stories that you read in magazines and online of women who have lost their unborn child after noticing that they had some spotting or bleeding, or after their babies movements had reduced or stopped, or after they had agonizing pains in their stomachs. With Beatrice though I…
Here we go…
Why now? I originally thought about starting a blog when we (Jamie and I) bought our first home together, as a way to document the updates we were making to our home and garden, and as a means for our family – who are 250 miles away, to have a sneak peek at what we…
This is My Motherhood 